Yesterday was 7 week since surgery. I had a pretty busy day so I forgot to update my blog. Oops.
I weighed in yesterday morning at 252.2 pounds. That's 42 pounds since surgery and a total of 53 pounds lost. I am squarely in the part of losing where I can't really see the changes taking place. I'm sure that's probably because I do spend a fair amount of time in the mirror wondering when I'm going to sprout a collarbone or what I'm going to look like thin. I keep wondering how my face will change. It seems strange really.
One cool thing that happened yesterday though was that I went to a Meet-up last night in Raleigh about plastic surgery. Yes, I know it's early yet, but given the price tag I'm sure it's never too early to think about it and certainly not too early to start saving money for it. Geez, the cost!!!! Anyway, I digress.....
I walked in to the room and one of our male Meet-up members who used to be quite a big guy (and who looks great now!), walked up and said, "Wow, you look great! You're losing so fast!" I was so stunned, I didn't know what to say. I think I stammered out a "Thank you." At least I hope I did. I do remember asking if he really thought he could tell a pretty major difference. He swore he could tell.
So there you go. Changes. And I can't even really tell. I think I'm ready to be at the point where none of my clothes fit, but I have to remind myself daily that I didn't get fat in one day and I'm not going to get thin in one day either. And right now, it looks like I'm losing at about 4 pounds a week. I'll take it.
I'm going to sit on Gerald until he takes a picture today, and I have to do measurements as well. I'll post when I have all that info. Maybe he can do another morphing thing with my pre-op picture like the did with the one on Day 25. Maybe that will help me to see the changes.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Day Late - Weigh-in Wednesday 6 weeks
Yesterday was 6 full weeks since surgery. I weighed in at 256.4, 38 pounds less than the day of surgery and a total of 49 pounds from my highest weight. Physically, I feel good. I think I look better. We'll take measurements next week to see how much more I've lost in inches.
I'm WAY stressed these days, so eating is not the comfort it once was. It can't be. So I've cried, screamed, cursed, and just mainly been angry about the loss of my job. So in short, I'm having to deal with it instead of stuffing it down with food. I have no interest in eating because if I do and if I eat what I know would comfort me, it would hurt anyway.
I'll be ok. I just have to get through this, and the next few days will be the worst I guess. I'll be back with more positive news soon. Love to you all.
I'm WAY stressed these days, so eating is not the comfort it once was. It can't be. So I've cried, screamed, cursed, and just mainly been angry about the loss of my job. So in short, I'm having to deal with it instead of stuffing it down with food. I have no interest in eating because if I do and if I eat what I know would comfort me, it would hurt anyway.
I'll be ok. I just have to get through this, and the next few days will be the worst I guess. I'll be back with more positive news soon. Love to you all.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Discovering muscles
It sometimes amazes me at how much I actually don't mind... dare I even say, like.... going to the gym these days. I think part of it is how I know I am finally able to make progress instead of it constantly being an exercise in futility.
As of 2 weeks post-op, I was cleared to lift weights. I thought that was a little too soon, so I waited until week 4. Now that I'm almost 6 weeks out, I have really started to try to lift smart so I can see progress without building too much muscle. I need to tone. And, frankly, I am a little worried about having bat wings. My legs have always been kind of muscular, and certainly now are becoming more defined. But my arms are quite another sad, sad story. So I've been lifting weights, alternating between upper and lower body. Yesterday, Gerald said he could feel the muscles in my shoulders. I didn't believe him until he showed me. LOL And even then, it sure was a foreign feel to my fingers. Another interesting thing I discovered this morning was soreness in my inner thighs. Yesterday was a lower body workout day and I did the adductor/abductor machine with increasing weights with each set. It's a technique described in Body-for-LIFE. This morning when I went to get out of my chair at work, I noticed I was sore, and it came as a surprise. It's not the kind of soreness where I was in pain, but the good kind where I could feel it and be mindful that I had exercised.
All this really does surprise and amaze me. I can't wait to be down to 200 pounds! Because that's my goal for starting to run again. I ran the half marathon in 2001 and weighed 230 when I did. I want to be able to start out running at a lower weight than I've seen in the last 20 years and then go from there. I remember what it felt like to be that fit and I so desperately want to get back to that feeling. There was nothing in this world like it. And maybe one day I'll be fast enough to run with the likes of my friends Donna or Sherry.
Hey, a girl can dream, can't she?
As of 2 weeks post-op, I was cleared to lift weights. I thought that was a little too soon, so I waited until week 4. Now that I'm almost 6 weeks out, I have really started to try to lift smart so I can see progress without building too much muscle. I need to tone. And, frankly, I am a little worried about having bat wings. My legs have always been kind of muscular, and certainly now are becoming more defined. But my arms are quite another sad, sad story. So I've been lifting weights, alternating between upper and lower body. Yesterday, Gerald said he could feel the muscles in my shoulders. I didn't believe him until he showed me. LOL And even then, it sure was a foreign feel to my fingers. Another interesting thing I discovered this morning was soreness in my inner thighs. Yesterday was a lower body workout day and I did the adductor/abductor machine with increasing weights with each set. It's a technique described in Body-for-LIFE. This morning when I went to get out of my chair at work, I noticed I was sore, and it came as a surprise. It's not the kind of soreness where I was in pain, but the good kind where I could feel it and be mindful that I had exercised.
All this really does surprise and amaze me. I can't wait to be down to 200 pounds! Because that's my goal for starting to run again. I ran the half marathon in 2001 and weighed 230 when I did. I want to be able to start out running at a lower weight than I've seen in the last 20 years and then go from there. I remember what it felt like to be that fit and I so desperately want to get back to that feeling. There was nothing in this world like it. And maybe one day I'll be fast enough to run with the likes of my friends Donna or Sherry.
Hey, a girl can dream, can't she?
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Weigh-in Wednesday - 5 weeks out!
Not much to report here today. I weighed in this morning and I am down to 260.4. So that's -34 pounds since surgery and a total of 45 pounds over all. I'm kind of in a weird place right now. Everything I have either fits again or is way too big. But the next size down is not necessarily the right fit. So I guess I'm in between. It's strange, but I'll take it.
I suppose one exception to this rule is that I have a pair of stretch jeans in black from several years ago that I had taken in on the sides. They were originally size 20, but I'm guessing I got them down to near an 18. I wore them to work today. In fact, I had the 2nd part of my internal interview with our VP and I was sweating over it. I wore the top to my black linen suit that I wore last week. I took the skirt and was going to change into that to go meet with Ben. But Steph assured me I looked fine the way I was. So off I went in black top, black jeans and my kickin' black boots. I wore my awesome silver jewelry that everybody loves. I felt good. And confident. And isn't that what one needs to feel like when on an interview?
The meeting with Ben was easy and more like a really pleasant conversation. I enjoyed speaking to him. I thanked him for seeing me. And tomorrow I will send him a warm thank you note to follow up. Officially, decisions will be made and we'll be notified by the middle of next week. So, my friends, say a few more prayers..... I'll keep you posted!
I suppose one exception to this rule is that I have a pair of stretch jeans in black from several years ago that I had taken in on the sides. They were originally size 20, but I'm guessing I got them down to near an 18. I wore them to work today. In fact, I had the 2nd part of my internal interview with our VP and I was sweating over it. I wore the top to my black linen suit that I wore last week. I took the skirt and was going to change into that to go meet with Ben. But Steph assured me I looked fine the way I was. So off I went in black top, black jeans and my kickin' black boots. I wore my awesome silver jewelry that everybody loves. I felt good. And confident. And isn't that what one needs to feel like when on an interview?
The meeting with Ben was easy and more like a really pleasant conversation. I enjoyed speaking to him. I thanked him for seeing me. And tomorrow I will send him a warm thank you note to follow up. Officially, decisions will be made and we'll be notified by the middle of next week. So, my friends, say a few more prayers..... I'll keep you posted!
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Yesterday was my 1 mo. Surgiversary!
"Surgiversary" is what we call an anniversary in WLS terms. I woke up to a good ol' DS cleaning out, and weighed. A friend of mine from the DS board says we should weigh first thing in the morning, post DS poop, while naked, dehydrated and exhaling. So that's what I did. I weighed in at 262, so that's exactly 32 pounds since surgery, for a total of 43 pounds over all.
It's been a pretty quiet weekend. We went to mom's yesterday and that was nice, well, except for the rain and cold and general yuckiness of the weather. I took her some clothes that I'd gotten from a clothing swap that are not my style. Mom really appreciated them! We also stopped by and saw Adrianne and Todd yesterday. Just hung around and BS-ed for a while.
Today I didn't feel very good. Nothing bad, just not a lot of energy. So we've laid around all day except for the trip to the grocery store. I've been wrapped up in my Snuggie that Mom gave me for my birthday and another blanket. Did I mention that I am constantly cold since surgery? Geez! I've never known anything like this! Gerald also built a fire in the fireplace and it was nice. I could tell when it went out. I really do long for one of those days when it's sunny and 90 degrees and I can go lay in the sun by the pool and get warm! Kinda like a blue-tailed skink on the concrete sidewalk.
And since it's so gross outside, the least it could do is SNOW! I'd love to see one more before winter is gone. I hope we wake up to one in the morning.
It's been a pretty quiet weekend. We went to mom's yesterday and that was nice, well, except for the rain and cold and general yuckiness of the weather. I took her some clothes that I'd gotten from a clothing swap that are not my style. Mom really appreciated them! We also stopped by and saw Adrianne and Todd yesterday. Just hung around and BS-ed for a while.
Today I didn't feel very good. Nothing bad, just not a lot of energy. So we've laid around all day except for the trip to the grocery store. I've been wrapped up in my Snuggie that Mom gave me for my birthday and another blanket. Did I mention that I am constantly cold since surgery? Geez! I've never known anything like this! Gerald also built a fire in the fireplace and it was nice. I could tell when it went out. I really do long for one of those days when it's sunny and 90 degrees and I can go lay in the sun by the pool and get warm! Kinda like a blue-tailed skink on the concrete sidewalk.
And since it's so gross outside, the least it could do is SNOW! I'd love to see one more before winter is gone. I hope we wake up to one in the morning.
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